Sometimes these blogs just need to be out there all over again…
*originally posted 6/14/15
Dont have lots of words to string together into a blog today. i do have lots of thoughts, feelings, experiences, n stuff…but the words…they just seem to dangle out there like the branches on a mango tree. They just dont seem to be molding well into complete sentences. Truth be told i dont want to even venture out from mi casa today…i dont want to see anyone and have to speak real live sentences. So today, avoidance is the answer (except that i need coffee creamer and doubt my crew can live on last nite’s pizza for too many more hours…so, i guess i will grocery it up soon…but if u see me, dont attempt a convo…it may not be pretty).
Here’s about all i can string together right now from the past few days…
hope in the uncertain.
family redefined in unexpected ways/places.
perseverance in the ugly.
pride in the potential.
joy in heavy moments.
fathers stepping in for the fatherless.
change in hearts and minds.
depth in the thinking big.
motivation in the overcoming.
commitment in discomfort.
beauty in hands that look different.
struggling in the re-entry.
tears in the reality.
boldness in the brokenness.
sacrifice in the view of others.
stepping up when no one will.
words outloud when it felt like no one’s listening.
songs and stories and prayers on docks.
unexpected service in unexpected places.
stooping in mud.
loving like “i”, not like “I”.
Little i. this week that is what i saw. Living the man-of-no-reputation-kinda love. That is how i want to live/love. i know why i want to live/love with a little i. i dont need to hit anybody over the head with my “why.” They dont need words, they need the love/hope of a little i revival. My “little i revival” cant reside in one longitude/latitude. It wasnt. It isnt. Everything i saw and hope for didnt happen in one place.
Alright. i need to get coffee creamer…and see what He shows me in this little i revival today in THIS place.
“Think of yourselves the way Christ Jesus thought of himself. He had equal status with God but didn’t think so much of himself that he had to cling to the advantages of that status no matter what. Not at all. When the time came, he set aside the privileges of deity and took on the status of a slave, became human! Having become human, he stayed human. It was an incredibly humbling process. He didn’t claim special privileges. Instead, he lived a selfless, obedient life and then died a selfless, obedient death—and the worst kind of death at that—a crucifixion.” Philippians 2:5-8 (Message)