So, been busy around here…putting up signs (GO BARC – if you live in N Texas, vote for my cousin Barcus Hunter – he’s running for Texas State Court of Appeals!), getting HR tested (heart rate, that is), visiting friends, delivering chocolate to those who NEEDED it, trying to book a girls trip to paradise, and many other seemingly unimportant things this week.
But yesterday as I sat down to start my day the way I SHOULD be starting it each day (that is, in my Bible…starting off the day w/the Truth and a shield to guard from the cr*p that life throws at me) I felt like re-reading thru some of my journal…and this is the page I came to. Here’s what it said:
“My son give me your heart and let your eyes observe my ways.”
It is noble to train a child in the way he should go, but better still to walk that way yourself.
I didnt write where I lifted that line from, but today – of all days – it meant so much more to me than a catchy phrase. I know full well that life is full of struggles – some big, some temporary – and all do have purpose. I get that. Do I appreciate it when I’m in the midst of those struggles?? I”d be lyin if I said “YES, LORD BRING ON THE HEARTACHE!!”
In fact, I’ve been floundering lately in what I’m ‘supposed’ to do in certain situations…in what God would deem best. My instinct is to run/hide from confrontation or opposition. But, I read that…”let your eyes observe my ways” and I remember the eyes who are on me. And, even when they are not, am I living as though they are? Do I speak as though ears can hear me? Do I act as though actions are modeled?
What I am training my kids – or any others God drops in my life as witnesses to my life – by the way I’m living my day to day? And so, I come to Him and beg for Him to forgive all my failures…as I so often forget to ask, and I beg for Him to “create in me a clean heart…renew a steadfast spirit w/in me…MAKE ME WALK IN YOUR WAY, NOT MINE”
We are training our children – and we are being an example to so many others all around us – how are we walkin? I needed to read that. No more hiding…no more avoiding, just asking (over and over and over) for Him to wash away the ME that gets all over everything, and replace it with the CHRIST that needs to be seen in me.
Rambling, I guess. But I needed to hear this today…and so I share