windy day = ride cut short
2 hours on bike + 3 mile run
A few wks ago Dana asked me why/how do I get all these workouts in to train for this race. I’ll tell ya…I”m not quite sure. TRULY. I dont know how I’m getting it done…well, some weeks I dont…like THIS week (planned 12 hours of workouts and I got in 7ish hrs).
Today was a frustrating day for me. I fight a mental battle at times. Last week I realized (we are studying Philippians at church – the book of JOY) that those times I’ve set my mind to this: “I HAVE to get a 40 mile ride in this wkend” instead of “I GET to do a 40 mile ride this wkend”. Big difference.
Truly, I do feel the “GET TO” most of the times…I just seem to let frustrations of life creep in. I’m blessed to be healthy to do it…I get time to work hard…just me…and talk to God…and take care of this body/mind He gave me…and enjoy outside…and get away from the computer, phone, laundry, etc. And truly, for me, I get to show my kids that joy isnt found in a bigger house;or who I impress/please or try to fit in with; or about fitting into a certain size, or about achieving perfection – in my house, car, yard, clothes; or about who does MORE and keeping score. Ultimately, its only about seeking to please God while I’m here…in everything I do.
Its about “whether you eat, drink, or whatever you do – DO IT ALL FOR THE GLORY OF GOD”.
Its about taking care of the body/mind He gave me…I dont have the timeline for when it’ll be done.
Its about modeling a healthy lifestyle for my kids and anyone around me who might be watching.
Its about spending time w/hubby.
Its about seeing how far I can push myself when I dont think I can go any farther.
Its about choices…priorities…examining HOW I’m spending my precious time He gave me.
For me, its more than a workout. I dunno how I get it in…and trust me, these days lots of things are getting skipped bc I just CANT get it all in. Hubby and kids must be 1st, but the other stuff has to give. Dinners have been more “sandwich nights!!” than they used to, friends have wondered where their social chairman has vanished to, and I truly think my mom thinks I’ve gone off the deep end bc I’m missing in action most weekdays from 9.30a to 1.30p! But regardless, I know this is what I’m supposed to be doing right now.
I get to.
Cool verse I read today sounds even cooler in The Message translation:
Paul’s words to encourage…
“Do everything readily and cheerfully – no bickering, no second-guessing allowed! Go out into the world uncorrupted, a breath of fresh air in this squalid and polluted society. Provide people a glimpse of good living and of the living God. Carry the light-giving Message into the night so I’ll have good cause to be proud of you on the day that Christ returns. You’ll be living proof that I didnt go to all this work for nothing.” Philippians 2:14-16
And so, I GET TO…and my only hope is that #1 I cross the finish line in May ALIVE (HA!) and #2 that even just my little sphere of influence might see a “glimpse of good living” and be encouraged to examine their own lives.
Because I get to…yea, thats it.
OH – and dont think you are off the hook – my bike needs a name. You CANNOT leave me w/’gator’ (shout out, Dana!!). Hep me.