That’s how I feel this month. I’ve been very very very weak this month at my attempt to fast/focus on what God wants me to. I’ve felt weak and tired. And when i’m weak this happens: overthinking, overdoing, overcommiting…you name it.
And then in the eye of this hurricane I call “holidays 2012”, I’ve somehow managed to find myself relishing a sweet/rare opportunity to rest. To think. To pray. To write. That’s when it hit me…maybe the 7 stuff doesn’t only “work” on me when I succeed. Maybe part of the deal is the realization. Maybe part of this is just seeing/wanting/hoping for change instead of just skating along the same ol way as I’ve always done it.
Maybe my crashing and burning at times, can shape me.
That’s what I’m hoping.
So right here, right now at this unexpected moment of chill time I’m going to get thankful. I’m going to attempt to focus on the “now” that I get to live out – regardless or my failures or weaknesses. Just, thanks.
And, I’ll be anxious to see how this month 2 rounds out.
15 things I’m thankful for today:
2-friends who laugh with me
3-dog fur floating around my house (yep, I said it)
4-music by Ryan Adams (always calms my soul)
5-Maya’s pony tail
6-smell of leather
9-new books (my nook)
10-moments when my kids blow my mind w/how well they know their God already
11-Brent’s integrity despite opposition
12-my pastor Ron
14-watching Maya dance
15-when my kids hug each other
I feel better already. I can do this. I can exact change. I can move closer to who He wants me to be…lil by lil.