Reminded today that I’m not.
Just wanted to say that. I’ve had people ask before "why do you blog?" – hmmm, maybe to put out there what He is trying me to get into my own brain. The more I type, the more I think, the more it sinks in. Just one theory. Or, maybe its what He wants to get into your brain. Not sure.
Today, I’ve had a reality check. I feel helpless and more than a little bit of a failure. I feel out of control. I feel uncertain. I feel unable to get back in charge. Thank God. Why does it take a bit of a stressful situation to remind me that this life is NOT mine to live? If it were, I’d be a mess. Truly. A mess.
Its only when I try to steal the reigns that things get hairy. As I type, the world isnt crashing around me…it may be for someone out there. It isnt so depressing that I dont want to get out of bed, but it may be for someone else that I say ‘hello’ to today. So for me, I’m reminded that even in the tiniest mucky mires that life presents…or the big heavy dont-want-to-get-out-of-bed stuff, He wants more than anything for us to just crawl up in His lap and surrender.
Today I have to. I cant do this on my own. That S guy sneaks in and tells me how inept I am…how wrong I am…how weak I am. But then, my Father reminds me of His promise to ME, "I will NEVER leave you, I will NEVER forsake you" whether its sleepless nights or days you cant stop sleeping.
So today, I offer this. Whatever we face, however weak we feel at times, do we doubt that He can handle it beyond our expectations? Do we doubt that He knows/feels every tear? We dont have the ONE problem that He cant handle…the ONE problem that He choses to ignore.
So – as I have to do quite often – I’m turning over the ship…I just gotta. And, I’m ready to pop the popcorn and sit back and watch. Its never dissappointing when He takes the lead.
Say a prayer for me, and I’ll do the same for you.
((hugs)) Have you been reading my blog? Thank you. I needed to be reminded.
Love YOU.
Hey, we are in our PJ’s over here today too!! Just relax, rest that big brain of yours and take a Kris day! YOU deserve it!! Don’t forget that you are soooo GOOD!
Tomorrow will be bright.
HUGS!!!!
Hang in there girl. You have a lot of friends too that are praying for you and hoping for peace with whatever you are dealing with right now.
Kris – I find it no coincidence that I read your blog today. I do read it all the time but as you know, I’m more of a ‘drop in blogger’.. okay..more of a ‘drop in reply-er to a blogger’ not very consistent with the blogging – but thanks for loving me anyway 🙂 Okay, back to my point.. today in my devotional it read “My intercessor is my friend as my eyes pour out tears to God.” Job 16:20 – This got me thinking about ‘real friends’ and the passage was so inspiring – – I must type it out word for word …
“A real friend is God’s evidence on earth of His love for you” – I LOVE that, it chokes me up when I think about it… and you are, for me, the definition of a ‘real friend’. I also know that that every single person that subscribes to your blog feels the same way. Isn’t it cool that all you have to do is look at your circle of blogger friends (even the drop in kind:) as real reminder of His love for you.
“A real friend is a channel between you and God, a conduit for the Holy Spirit. Her words are the Lord’s wisdom, spoken to you in a voice as familiar and warm as your favorite robe” – – I know God chooses to speak to us sometimes through our friends. I LOVE that our real friends are the ones that are the most familiar with us – like a warm robe. The kind that we feel completely comfortable with no makeup on and vournable. How much would we all love to freeze time and cozy up for a long chat with our real friends? While we can’t always cozy up together, I am comforted to know I can always cozy up to your blog site – – more times than you know it has lifted my spirits. So, God’s a blogger – who knew?
“A real friend does not judge; she invites you to examine. A real friend does not direct; she invites you to pray. A real friend does not compete; she elicits your rest. A real friend does not diminish; she nurtures your growth and inspires courage. A real friend does not help you rationalize; her words take aim with grace. – – LOVE, LOVE LOVE all of that … it speaks for itself.
You cannot hide from the eyes of a real friend. She sees what you hide and hears the words you cannot say. Her prayers for your are priceless treasures as she bends her knees on your behalf. Praise God for the real friends in your life. ”
I hope you know, you touch us all with your blog, we hear the words you cannot say. We may not know why your hurting, but we know that you are. So, know that your circle of real friends – – each of us in our own unique way – – are here for you. We are praying for you. Love, Cobble